Summer '09

So, Summer is coming to a end...

Here is a Recap of what my summer has consisted of...


SIGNIFICANT FEST 2009!



Spending almost every weekend with Joe, Meagan, Maria, and the Duval Boys.




Havin' too much fun with these dudes. its been a blast every moment really. no complaints once so ever.

I also flew to Knoxville, TN




To spend time with Eden and Crystal. and to see a bunch of other people i haven't seen since Christmas.

These girls are true sweethearts. i really wish that i lived closer to them. Quality friends. the really are. i miss them already and I've only been gone a week





I had a really good time. Got to See Naysayer and Swamp Thing in Johnson City, at The Hideaway.

Also saw Time To die and Republicorpse in Kay's basement.




It was fun but I was looking forward to sleeping in a Legit bed.



I spent most of my nights on a thin ass Couch bed "pull - out" mattress. Rad dolphin pillow too!




I've been Workin Full time at the Dr. P Phillips YMCA Summer Camp Program. it's been a lot of fun. too much fun to really be work. i guess I'm lucky to have a job, and that it's one I enjoy. But the only downfall to workin in "DP" is that i have to Drive too much to get there. fuck it, its fun though!



Anyways, my summer has been nothing but the best. I've had a great time. and enjoyed every moment of it. im truely sad to see it coming to an end, but the rest of 2009 is going to rule just as hard. i turn 21 in October. and im hoping to land aPromotion some where within the YMCA.

Everything is lookin' good in life right now. i hope it's the same for everyone else.

it's been a while since Ive made a post... so here it goes.

live has been pretty upbeat lately, which im glad.

Ive spent Monday-Friday workin 9 to 5:30. but my weekends have been nothing but exceptional. hangin with Joe, Meagan, and a few other friends. iv'e been enjoying my self, which i havnt been able to do for a while.

anywho. i fly up to Knoxville, TN Tomrrow at around 5Pm then im headed to Johnson City, to see Naysayer, swamp thing, Fingers crossed, and bruteforce. i'll be stayin with kay and Ape again. i love those girls theyre way too sweet for their own good.

then friday a little fl hardcore in TN time to die, and republicorpse at kay and apes.

i come home sunday. i know its only a few days but im going to make them the best that i can.

ill miss you all while im gone. but im glad to be leaving for a little.


updates with pictures when i get back from TN.

How the fuck do i believe someone who's actions show the complete opposite of what they say?

to be honest i can't. and i won't maybe ive been hurt too many times, or something. but i wont let my self be lead on.

plus I'm not stressing this too much.

there wasn't much there to begin with. so its not like i'm missing out on much. honestly im not missing out on anything. good riddance.

Bad Brain

"I used to walk with my head up
now i walk straight ahead
all those things i looked up to
to me those thing are dead
on closer inspection
so much turned out fake
let down so many times
caused part of me to break

as i grow older
my heart grows colder
and i hate to feel
that part of me is over
i can't waste another day
i can't let my spirit slip away "

- Mental

This is how i have been feeling for the past while.

I see all these kids at work. So stoked to just be alive. so carefree. and full of excitement and hope.

all i can do is envy this trait of the kids.

i mean i put on this "Y" Tee and make it seem like I'm living and loving life just as a child should.

but when i clock-out and the shirt comes off i have to face reality.

A lot of shit has been messin' up for me. I mean I'm a Decent person. i try my hardest to make things work out for the best with my friends and family but lately it has been nothing but bullshit. I'm tired of it. really.

The two people who i thought we going to support me in anything i would ever do have started to turn their back on me and put me down. continually pushing the negative aspect of my current goals in my face. so much for that.

... currently on the Fence about Sticking with reversal. i am the sole source of income and its starting to effect my finances to an extreme where i wouldn't be able to buy a house or get qualified to rent an apt until I'm about 30. and I'm not stoked for that.

Reversal has brought me close to some people i never though it would and i am so thankful for it. but sometimes good things have to come to an end. and i have a feeling this is one of them.

Any who.

It's fathers day. i wanna lighten this up a little bit haha.

i wanna say think you to my dad. you've been a great father to me, and i truly appreciate everything you've done, and all the times you've been there for me.

also want to show my appreciation for both my grandfathers, which have both passed away.

so be it if you're in heaven, or just 6 feet under the ground. i will always love and Cherish the time i had with you. you showed me to put my family and friends first, and never let anything come between that and I'm very thankful for that.

my you both R.I.P

and to all of my friends/family without fathers i am very sorry, and you have my sympathy.

and those of you who do have fathers and don't show your appreciation. you should, with out him you wouldn't be here. anyway. hope every ones had a good day.